As I walk my path the history of the ancestral lands speak.  The ancestors didn't own anything.  How we as a nation of people are healing the lies of generational pain and trauma.   I remember being angry when I found out my indigenous roots and what happened to my indigenous relatives. 

 

I said to the ancestors I can not continue to perpetuate more anger.  I'm not getting anywhere? 

 

I'm only creating more frustration, hate, more separation and trauma.  In a conversation with the ancestors, I said "ancestors why do I have this anger?  They said to create, it's medicine. 

 

I asked can you teach me how to create something good in my life?  

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As the earth called me back to walk in remembrance to listen, trust, have faith, hope and not give up.   Make peace with my life I heard the inner call within.  For we are not separated, we are all connected. 

 

We have all experienced abandonment, betrayal, lies and deceived ourselves.  As I get to know thyself with the ancestors teachings.  They teach me to look at myself and take full responsibility for my life.  As I look at how I to have hurt my children.  I asked the question to ask them to forgive my actions that  have been passed down in rooted ancestral pain.  The ancestors showed me how can you ask for forgiveness when you have not forgive your parents?  Who am I to have forgiveness when I have not forgiven my parents and my part?  This began a long path of undoing what I have done.  I had to face the blame, shame, guilt of these condition that do not belong to me.   Nor do I claim them.  To sit night after night, ceremony and personal prayers observing my actions.  Moving through layers.  Cry, release and awareness with the ancestors.  To be held with no judgement is bliss!   

 

All possibilities are with the creators.  As above, so below, as within, as without.  I had to come to know the truth.  We are not separated from the creator within. 

 

I asked, how do I become one with that which creates? 

 

I had to look at all conditions and see I was manifesting judgement. This practice is walking the red and yellow road-- a warrior path.  Share how I have fallen, hurt, learned the betrayal deep within my own relationship to my body. 

 

I don't have everything figured out.  What I can do is go deeper with full support by the guidance of the ancestors.  What I can share is... I have made peace with both my parents, brothers and sister.  To do this is to accept myself, to accept them and move in observation, to be aware of judging/ shift.   To enjoy the beauty in my family's relationships. 

 

It's not about perfection.  It's about awareness when I forget and taking full accountability and shifting.  To take the time to observe and see the reflection of what's outside is what's going on inside. And to love my family right where they're at.  We are aspects of one another.  We get opportunities to see ourselves through the mirror reflection of all.  

 

I am in deep gratitude for my grown adult children I get to be in their lives and love them.   It's been 12 years I  changed my path to heal.  In these 12 years my children have been processing and watching.  I've continued to learn how to hold space without judgement for them and for their healing. 

 

I've learned to speak about them in the light. 

 

To watch that I'm accountable and not gossiping or speaking ill of them.   Through my own practice and awareness. Life continues to grow and bloom in bliss. These teachings come from the Cosmo, Galactic relatives and ancestors of these lands. Our grandmothers & grandfather's. 

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I am beyond happy and joyful to continue to heal generations in all lineages, collectively and galactic.  

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I came from a home of all the things we can name as disconnected. 

 

I've been returning to the medicine of the land, ancestors, cosmic and galactic invisible beings.

 

Do I have life figured out?  No I don't. I don't have to.   

 

What I do is I show up!  I have purpose, mission and live in all possibilities. 

 

I live in healing and living in my full potential.   

 

Opportunity and practice gives healing , balance, peace, harmony , chaos to ask the questions " what am I supposed to be learning?". 

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I asked my ancestors do I have the right to live a peaceful life?  I received a confirmation through my heart in full support "yes!"

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Sharing experiences in my life and helping others walk along their path back home will always be an honor.